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Hi,   My name is Sissy and I'm 17 years old. Last year, I had a psychosis. Today I'm very depressed. Is it possible to become the 'old' me again or is my brain damaged? My brain doesn't function as good as before anymore.   Yours faithfully,   Sissy

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Hi,  I am from vietnam and I'm 21 years old. I have met the right person of my life. He is 27 years old and also loves me most. We want to spend the rest of our life together. But there are so many struggles ahead that makes me so scared of losing him. You know life is too long and rough and we are passively controled by something called "fate" or "destiny". We are about to have distance love. He says anywhere i go, he would be there. But life is so rough. What should I do to control my fate ? To have what I want ?

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Hello, I will try to tell my story in a nutshell. I am woman- 22 years old. I got pregnant, but I can't stay with the father of the baby. I decided to keep the baby tho, and here I am 6 months pregnant now. I was not thinking for finding father or anything, but I started relationship with my current boyfriend when I was 2 months pregnant. We want to be together, and the child is not obstacle for him, but he is scared to be father, as this is something unexpected for him. He likes to plan everything in his life first. We live together now, but we  had plans of moving together with the baby to another place, as we share only one room, and with baby it's impossible to live like that. But recently he told me, that he is not ready to move with me and baby. Tho he want to come and see me everyday in the new flat and take care of me. He want to help me with decorating the baby's room, etc... We really want to be together, we were thinking of going to psychologist for couples. But we found out it's too expensive for us to afford that. Yesterday I was very depressed, I was crying all day, cus I was thinking that he might prefer to leave me and find another girl, who has no kids, but even tho the baby I will have, and the health and psychological problems I have he still want to be with me and he take care of me like my father never did.  Can you please give me some advice on what I can tell him as advice about the situation. I want him to make his own decision without me telling him what to do.  Thank you.

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Hello, I will try to tell my story in a nutshell. I am woman- 22 years old. I got pregnant, but I can't stay with the father of the baby. I decided to keep the baby tho, and here I am 6 months pregnant now. I was not thinking for finding father or anything, but I started relationship with my current boyfriend when I was 2 months pregnant. We want to be together, and the child is not obstacle for him, but he is scared to be father, as this is something unexpected for him. He likes to plan everything in his life first. We live together now, but we  had plans of moving together with the baby to another place, as we share only one room, and with baby it's impossible to live like that. But recently he told me, that he is not ready to move with me and baby. Tho he want to come and see me everyday in the new flat and take care of me. He want to help me with decorating the baby's room, etc... We really want to be together, we were thinking of going to psychologist for couples. But we found out it's too expensive for us to afford that. Yesterday I was very depressed, I was crying all day, cus I was thinking that he might prefer to leave me and find another girl, who has no kids, but even tho the baby I will have, and the health and psychological problems I have he still want to be with me and he take care of me like my father never did.  Can you please give me some advice on what I can tell him as advice about the situation. I want him to make his own decision without me telling him what to do.  Thank you.

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I always thought I was pretty normal, normal family, normal friends..... But the older I got I realised people didn't take to me the way I thought they did. Now im going through puberty, at 29, a late bloomer I guess. My world I thought Was, is now not at all, I'm going through mood swings, ups and downs, i feel like everyone stares at me and knows. no one treats me normal anymore, they treat me like I'm diseased, not welcome on the planet I share with them, my body doesn't feel normal and I feel like my freak ness has rubbed off on my family now too, no body wants us around. And we haven't even done anything wrong, I'm only going through puberty... Sorry im such a freak for being a late bloomer! No one understands, not even the people closest to me, I have to keep everything to myself. Taboo. It's okay, I guess. I will always be the best person I can, polite, genuine, outgoing and compassionate, the only thing that bugs me is not only am I labeled a misfit but now I got to watch my back too! Why does this have to be me. The girls all stop and stare then laugh at me and talk behind my back, and so much for having my own privacy now. It wouldn't bother me so much if my puberty blues was only affecting me, but it's affecting everyone around me, Everyone I love and care about. So I suppose the only point I want to get across for the time being, is if you want to see what it's like to go through puberty at 29 then I welcome you with open arms to come and see I don't mind at all, but if you just want to be a pain in the ass and cant stand the site of me, then that's fine too just f@#% off and walk the other way, if you don't like me because I'm different then don't come and see me.... its that easy. Thank you to all for taking the time out to read my story
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 I suspect that a family member has psychosis and has not been diagnosed. I think he was first affected over 10 years ago. He has given up on working, having a relationship,  etc. Because of the journey his psychosis has taken him on. Is there any help for him? Do you think its worth doing anything at this stage? Is there a way to convince someone that they need help despite what they are led to believe due to their illness? 

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I know this guy sometime now. I don't like him in that manner... not like a boyfriend. I don't think we could even be friends because he and his whole family are not my type of people. They're just bored out of their minds and talk shit behind other people's backs. Including me and my family, FOR SURE. Out families know each other and used to hang out all the time, his helping mine out . Things changed and that is no more that way but I don't care. My folks don't wanna have much doing with them and don't like them but these days he invited me to go out. He's seven years older than me and there is no freaking way to be something more than friends with him. I may be young but I'm not stupid.(That's what I wanted to think.) I know what guys have on their minds. But because I'm bored as fuck, I said yes and went out without telling my folks. They were sleeping so... why? First mistake done here. We went out. He wanted to show me this place were I couldn't get in (cuz im too young for that). We were about to go somewhere else when his dad called him. He Was pretty close to my whole family which complicates the whole thing for me. Without knowing much, he took me to this huge, expensive place where they were celebrating this person's birthday. And I of course didn't know shit. Long story short ; his dad was pretty generous when it came to me. I tried to refuse cuz I didn't have a cent in my pocket but he in a way demanded to pay whatever he payed. My second mistake... It was fun, I had a great time. When I GOT HOME... I thought I was gonna be yelled at but my people just said they dont want me to see him anymore. Ok, fine - i said. I'm such a stupid loner to go out with the wrong people. The other day I was suppose to go to the other town  to say goodbye to my ''girlfriend'' (Im bisexual)  cuz she is going away for a few months with her family. She had already got on the plane and couldn't wait for me...  And Yeah I didn't go, I went out with that guy again. I fucking lied.  I fucking lied.I can't stand myself right now. He showed me this nice place and we waited for this woman. I guess he had things to talk about. Then my mom called and asked where I am. I couldn't lie again so I told here where I am, with who... I feel bad just for thinking that maybe it was good to lie again. She just said that we're gonna talk about it when I get home. So the woman came aaa loooong time later, 2 second later we went back to his place to pick up his friend.We wanted to go to this awesome place but got lost and were driving around for ...again, ... for a very loong time. Than suddenly I got called, just when we got there and I had to go home so we headed back. They got disappointed that my parents are trying to protect me and talked about it the on the way which made me feel even worse. Now I feel like shit. I don't like this guy but he obviously wants to fuck me. Like he doesn't show it that much but he wants to hold my hand and does stuff like that.  I try not to care about people's opinions, especially about people like him or his family... but I know his parents are insulted by mine for not letting me see him or inviting them to our house no more. My people don't want me to text him or see him anymore which makes it very uncomfortable for me cuz they used to be very close. I know he's trash and I got nothing for him but I know the shit they're saying behind our backs and it makes me sick. Plus, on the first ''date'' his dad spent a lot of money on me soo nooow I feel like a owe something to the guy. He's wondering why I'm not answering him. And now I lost mom's trust and she changed her mind about me. She used to be so proud of me for being da good and smart kid and now she thinks I'm not so mature and smart as she though.  I try to make excuses by myself like '' pfff he wanted to go out''' and stuff like that but I know that it's my fault. And the worst is that were almost neighbors. What the fuck should I  DO??? How could I BE SO stupid to go out with him just out of boredom. I can't even stand these people. 

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If I don't make a perfect recovery will my life be up and down?   If I use Facebook I start to feel more paranoid and worried. What can I do about this?   I think people know that I have been unwell and when I think about seeing them  or when I see them, I feel nervous.  what can I do about this?

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  Does the recovery movement in mental health go far enough? After experiencing psychosis, I researched the medical literature thoroughly in the hope of understanding better what had happened to me. I came across a load of negative outcomes and the best you could hope for, it seemed, was recovery. Am I the only one who expects more?   Recovery in its most literal sense means return to former state but I have eventually realised I didn’t want this as it would mean a return to the stresses that led to me becoming ill. I don’t just want to forget psychosis and move on. I actually want my life to be enriched by my experience, which although harrowing, was meaningful and profound to me.   As I touched on in my earlier post, part of my experience involved believing I was going to die and then that I was dead. In hospital, I realised that I was still alive. I tried to express my joy at this to my consultant. “If I ever die and go to hell,” I told him, “I will seek out the devil and laugh: ‘Is this the best you can do? I created a much worse hell for myself!’” I later regretted sharing this as he responded by telling me he was going to keep me in for longer! But what I was expressing wasn’t I think, just mania, it was victory because I had faced the abyss and survived. Everything else life could throw at me now seemed small.   I don’t really buy into the “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” cliché and my experience was basically a negative one but I do believe that my life has actually been enhanced in some ways because of what happened to me. For example, many of my relationships with friends and family have been strengthened since my experience and I now understand the meaning of hope and compassion in ways I had never thought of before. I have adjusted my lifestyle so I am less stressed and after many years of insomnia, on the whole, I sleep very well now.   It has been some years since I was psychotic and even after reaching what I had called full recovery, things continue to get better. But my life is certainly not what it was. What I want to see in mental health is the hope that you don’t need to be limited to just repairing your life after psychosis but can actually go on to rebuild, reshape and enhance.  

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