I ended up being admitted to a psychiatric hospital where I received the correct medication and treatment until I was well enough to be discharged.
I have now accepted I have to be more careful in order to stay well and prevent relapsing. I have identified the triggers that led to my episode (such as alcohol and lack of sleep) and have learnt to avoid them. I also regularly see my Community Psychiatric Nurse and Psychologist who help monitor my mood.
I thought everything would have changed and I would be treated differently by my family and friends after this episode. Instead, I was surprised how much support and understanding I received from them.
This has taught me that there is nothing to be ashamed of about having a mental illness despite the stigma that is commonly attached to it. It’s better to reach out and get the help you need rather than suffer in silence.